Doubt & Trust

In life, there are many moving parts. Each one needs to function in order for the other parts to work. Every time one small part changes, there are other pieces that need moved, changed, or added for everything to function in harmony again. 

As this school year is reaching an end, a lot of pieces in my life are moving. I can feel it, but I don't necessarily see how to make everything work together in harmony again. When the big picture is fuzzy, it's easy to begin to doubt. I've been doubting every decision I make about every aspect of my life. But a wise person, who I am blessed to call my amazing sister, once told me that it is in moments of change that the devil attacks. And surely, I have learned that she is right. As questions about what next year will be like both personally and professionally entered my life, I could see the devil trying to twist my emotions, to make me lose hope. He was attacking everything I felt confident in so that I could feel confused and disoriented. He tried to convince me that I am not enough to make anything work, that I am a useless piece in the machine of life.

Then during prayer, God blessed me to stumble across Psalm 84. It was exactly what I needed to hear at exactly the right moment. (God's pretty awesome like that!)

After a lot of reflection and self evaluation I have returned back to the truth - that I am enough because I am a child of God. I am His daughter and he created me to perfectly complement the rest of the machine of life. He knows what He is asking of me, He is constantly affirming me that I am enough because I am His, and He is simply asking me to trust in His goodness. 

Although life is still confusing, I'm finding my peace in Him who loves me. I've realized that I don't need to know everything right now, I just need to trust in His plan for me, for everything is possible with God!