Sunday, May 17, 2015

Anchor

A reoccurring prayer for me lately is trust.  Mainly because... Life. Is. Hard.

Whether you are struggling with how to handle a problem at work, how to find work, how to figure out financial problems, how to navigate a relationship, how to deal with a breakup, how to love who you are, how to....[fill in the situation here].  There are a million things that can cause us to struggle in daily lives and they can truly impact our spiritual life.

Well, I have been riding on a couple of those little struggle boats lately.  At times I feel like I am in a giant sea of emotions as the highs are immediately met with drastic lows as joy meets chaos.  It's really difficult to feel like the usually positive me sometimes because I am so wrapped up in the little details of the current situations.  I know that there are moments of doubt (as mentioned in my previous post) and that the devil is just trying to attack me as I wait out this stormy season of my life.

But the lies that the devil keeps pushing... after a while I start to get convinced that they are true. We've all been there.  Believing the lies that things will never work out, that this good thing that is happening will get ripped out from under us, that we aren't worthy of love or success or happiness, that we aren't enough.  When your in the sea of emotion, getting thrown from one high to the next low as situations get more confusing or unclear, its easy to start to believe that those things are true.

As I was praying, I was reflecting on the imagery of the ocean, the ebb and flow of the waves, the high and low tides, and their strength during a storm.  I recognize that right now, I am in the middle of the storm.  I am being tossed around as I try to anchor myself.  The anchor of our faith is trust.  My trust is there.  I know that I have trusted in God in the past, that my anchor was deep enough to touch the bottom of the ocean of life and keep me connected to Him and His love in the past.  But I'm not sure the waves have ever felt this big.  There are just so many different waves of emotions coming my way.  And then it hit me, I haven't let my anchor go deep enough.  He is calling me to trust Him more.  To let the line for my anchor of trust out more than it ever has before so that it reaches the depths of the oceans - that it reaches God again.



So my prayer is that I learn to trust more deeply in the Lord.  I know that he has always sustained me.  I just need to trust that he will continue to do so.

I am thankful that I know this song - Anchor by Josh Garrels.  It has been one of my favorites for a few years now and I believe that it truly is an anthem that I need to be listening to.  "Anchor of my soul, you sustain. When I'm in the storm, you remain.  You remain, good to me."  God truly has always been good to me.  He has never failed me.  He will not fail me now.  For He is always good to me.  My anchor.

1 comment:

  1. Love the post. Love the imagery. Love the song. But more than all that, I love you!!

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