Beacon of Light in the Darkness

In my last post "I love you at your darkest", I shared about how I have been feeling in the dark lately. Well my good friend and current roommate, Jenny, gave me a copy of a book entitled "Seeking the Beloved: A prayer journey with St. John of the Cross" by Wayne Simsic.  If you share any of the sediments of that post, I suggest that you pick up a copy of this book.

Right now, God is speaking to my soul so much through this author.

"Faith constantly call us beyond our limitations because we never really know God, 

so the darkness increases as our faith deepens." 

I feel like I have definitely been called beyond my personal limitations here in Honduras - I am away from so many people I love and all of the comforts of my previous life.  But as I enter more into the darkness, my faith has to increase.  The more time I spend in pryer, the more I realize how far away I am from the One that created me.  The more I learn and get to know God, the more I realize I don't know.  It's a beautiful and stressful contradiction.  I have to have trust more, depend less on how I feel and more on what I know to be true.... I need to grow in faith.

God is calling me into the darkness right now.  Instead of feeling despair, this book has given me hope.  Hope that this is what is necessary to purify my heart - to prepare me for whatever it is that God has planned next.

"Love joins faith in showing us the way through the inevitable darkness that comes with spiritual growth.  It is faith that prepares us for union with God by drawing us into the unknown, and it is love - the heart's longing for the divine - that provides light even in the thickest darkness of night."

I have always been blessed to be aware of God's never ending love for me.  I am learning now to have faith in that love even when I do not feel it.  This darkness was inevitable.  If I was in the states or living here in Honduras, the darkness was coming.  God set this time aside in my life to experience this. I am blessed to have this time of sanctification to get even closer to God.  This faith in his unceasing love is my beacon of hope as I continue through this darkest part of my journey to Him yet.  I pray that each of you have hope in the boundless love of our amazing God so that when your darkness comes, it just doesn't seem as dark as it could be.