As most of you know, I was a math teacher before Honduras. What most of you don't know is that during my last year of teaching mathematics before Honduras I felt so distant from what I thought should be doing. Work was difficult, although I did my best to educate my student well. It was difficult because my heart was slowly being pulled toward mission and life in Honduras. The stronger I felt about going to Honduras and the more peace I gained about my decision to go, the more difficult staying in the present moment was and the more I felt like I shouldn't teach math.
Well after a year in Honduras, I found myself in a mathematics classroom again. Honduras was wonderful, I loved everything about it. And when staying in Honduras couldn't work out, I was bummed out. I didn't necessarily feel that teaching math was something that I wanted at that very moment. I was still there... living the life I was called to at that moment and I soaked it all in. I didn't feel that discontent that I had before Honduras. I had peace about where I was and I was praying to learn to accept where I was going.
Now, I am finally settling in here in Colorado. Today was my first day of my second year with my students here, and it was great! The zeal I used to have for teaching, way back in the beginning is back! I am loving every second of it. My classes ignited my fire to teach math again today. They were excited and engaged and hung on every word that I said! It was so beautiful to have that reassurance that God is calling me here, to this school, right now. I have made connections with them.
And all of this is just even greater evidence to me of God's great love for me and His plan in motion. If I would have moved to Colorado when I moved to Honduras, I never would have had the moment that I felt "This is where I am supposed to be" today. I would have still been overwhelmed, unmotivated, and unsettled. But He pushed me so far out of my comfort zone while I was in Honduras that now, here in Colorado, I can appreciate the comfort of teaching something that I am good at teaching. God provided me the opportunity to better appreciate the gift I have been given. Truly, I am so blessed to have a better understanding of my gift in the classroom and I hope that this year I can continue to foster that gift and watch it grow so that my students can continue to grow into the beautiful people that they are.
Here's to year two and the chance to "Make every day an adventure!"
